"it"

5:24pm. It's Saturday, a rainy day.

I feel kinda gloomy right now.

It has been bothering me for days... or perhaps, for weeks. How i hoped it's just my hallucination; how i hoped i have never been there; how i hoped it will just fade away like that. I shouldn't have think about all these, but i can't help it.

When can it ever end? Nobody knows. It will always remain as a secret, deep down in my heart.